10/28/2025
I have always felt a lingering sense of dissatisfaction - I have never single-handedly completed something that felt truly fulfilling, satisfying, and perfect. The sad thing is, I don't even know what that thing is, though I've been searching for it, consciously or unconsciously, for the past twenty years.
At times, I find myself deeply absorbed in admiring independent developers, designers, artist, and entrepreneurs - people who have accomplished what I could not.
Although, by worldly standards, I wouldn't be considered a failure, I've come to realize that success and fulfillment are two different things.
我内心中一直有一种不满足，没有独自做成一件事，很尽兴、满足、完美的做一件事。遗憾的事，我连这件事是什么都不知道，尽管在过去二十年中我一直或明或暗的寻找。有些时候，我沉浸在对一些独立开发者、设计师、艺术家、企业家的欣赏与关注中，因为他们做了我没法做成的事。虽然，世俗意义上，我并不算失败。但，成功与满足感，是两件事。