Drifting without Direction
In 2025, I've gradually come to realize a troubling truth: over the past few years, I have become increasingly negative and passive. Before 2019, I had little money, yet I still dared to try many things - though most ended in failure. After 2019, life became ore stable, but I also lost my sense of pursuit, merely drifting along, pushed by life and circumstances.
At its root, the problem comes down to two things: the lack of a clear direction - what my Christian faith calls a calling - and the lack of courage. This is not a healthy state to remain in.
2025年慢慢清晰的意识到一个问题，最近几年我变得非常消极、被动。2019年以前没有什么钱，当时还会有很多尝试，尽管大部分是失败的；2019年后生活平稳了，但也变得没有一点追求了，只是被动的被生活、被环境推着走。归根到底，两个原因：没有明确的方向（基督信仰中称之为呼召）、缺乏勇气。这不是一个好的状态。